Until a couple of weeks ago I’d only loosely been paying attention to the lunar cycles for the past few months. I’ve had very little energy and much of the life felt zapped out of me. My level of apathy has been pretty damn high but at least I’m not at burnout level. That right there is a whole ‘nother universe of hell and I don’t ever, never, not eeeeever want to experience that again.
No, this is more like I’ve been a little, no a lot, out of step with the flow around me. I can still feel and see the magnificent symphony playing all around me, it’s just that I’ve been kind of detached from it all.
Clearly it was time for me to go back in, to realign my mind. It’s been lovely to have some good stormy weather to complement my reboot. Thunderstorms, tornadoes, hurricanes, they’ve always been beautiful to me. I know the destruction and havoc that they can cause in people’s lives isn’t something that is generally wished for. I’m talking about the energy behind those tempests.
Putting on excellent music, lighting my incense, burning my long neglected candles and getting fresh ones that were calling to me, all of these things along with various synchronicities have helped me get myself flowing again.
I’ve been trying to remember what kinds of things I used to enjoy that required me to leave my house and I thought “That’s right! I used to love to go dancing!” Well, doing a search for the places you used to love to go to and seeing that they’re mostly all defunct now is yet another unsettling way to realize just how much time has passed.
Ah well, no importa since my creative juices have been flowing in other ways. I’ve gotten back into sewing and knitting, my first batch of beer is fermenting, I’m studying herbalism again, Lenormand and Tarot are calling me back, and I’m going to make an elder flower cordial after I’m done with this post.
During these last two weeks or so I’ve felt and seen this renewed sense of, what? Maybe that the stagnation is starting to break up?
I’d love to hear how you’ve re-centered yourselves after long periods of frustration and feeling stuck. It’s really easy to feel alone out here even though we’re almost eight billion strong as a species but try to remember that you’re not. It just feels like that in the daily grind.